Trying Not to Jump to Conclusions

A lot of the time I am able to talk myself out of being sad that we might not be able to have another child. It is just a strange feeling that I have, that Tyler will be an only child. I try to be positive about it and tell myself that it is so AWESOME that I was blessed to give birth to a child. Perhaps I have an extra speck of the miracle of a child being born because Tyler was so very ill all of those weeks in the NICU. We came close to losing him two or three times. Sometimes I feel selfish that I want another one; I should be happy with what I have. I am happy but I still want another one. I don't want him to be an only child. I'm an only child so Tyler will have so few family members. Rick only has one sibling so there are not a lot of family members on his side either. I didn't have anyone to grow up with, to relate to. As an adult, I still wish that I had a sibling or two or three to relate to, especially since my mom has passed on. Like I said, I can usually talk myself out of having a pity party but tonight I am sad. It is pretty late and I must be tired because I wouldn't normally put something so mushy on my blog. Tomorrow I will wake up and I will make myself be fine again. :-)