Pregnancy Question

I would love feedback from anyone who's been pregnant. Did you ever experience a sudden stop of pregnancy symptoms but you were still pregnant? I've read that this is normal but I still don't feel good about it and would like to hear what friends have to say. My symptoms totally stopped for a few days but luckily they have reappeared. Uggg, I'm driving myself crazy. Thanks for your help.

Damned if I do, damned if I don't

Well, posting the pregnancy news on this blog has blown up in my face. We had not told our parents or other family members about the pregnancy; we wanted to wait until the end of the first trimester since I'm prone to miscarriages. We don't want to worry our family members like we did last time. I told my mother in law about the pregnancy this time last year. She worried about me and was sad when we miscarried. Why put that on her again? Our plan was to tell family members when we felt we were pretty safe to, at the end of the first trimester.

The only people who read my blog on a regular basis are my local friends and a few Phoenix friends. I honestly didn't think I was letting the cat out of the bag to family. A lot of our family members don't use the internet I use my blog not only as a tool to post photos of Ty and tell everyone about the cute things he does but I also use it as a way to write about my feelings.

So today my MIL calls and is quite upset with us that we had not told her. (Someone read the blog and told her.)My husband answered the phone and got an ear-full from her. The ironic thing is that we wanted to tell family members as soon as we found out but there was something inside of me telling me is would be prudent to wait. My great news has turned out to hurt my MIL's feelings. Mom, I know you don't read my blog but us not telling was with good intentions, not bad.

So Far, So Good

Had my ultrasound this morning and we saw a heartbeat! It was a beat of 143 which I was told is great. I'm not out of the woods yet but this is really good news. I have another ultrasound in 4 weeks. :-) The due date is 7/8/09. Wouldn't that be a cool birthday?

We Shall Wait and See

I hesitated to write about this but I think it would be therapeutic for me. I am almost 7 weeks pregnant. I have an ultrasound on Wednesday. The big question looms over me will there be a heartbeat? (I've had 3 miscarriages.)I truly trust God, that whatever is best will happen. But I keep worrying and then I feel guilty about worrying. I know that God knows what is best for me. He may or may not want me to have a second child. It will all work out exactly how it is supposed to. My brain believes that but my heart wants what it wants - a sibling for Tyler.

I was joking with my hubby this evening that I am surely showing signs of pregnancy because I cried after a team was eliminated from The Amazing Race. Talk about being hyper-emotional. Also, my sense of smell is quite heightened and my boobs are tender. I keep taking pregnancy tests to make sure the positive line isn't getting any fainter. Thank you cheap dollar store pregnancy tests. I've taken about 20 of them in the past 3 weeks!

Tyler and Lemieux

We have a black can named Lemieux (named after the hockey player Mario Lemieux). Each and every day Tyler and Lemieux have the same interaction which has been going on for about 2 years. I will describe it in the form of a script:
The cat sits quietly alone pondering life.
Tyler enters and lunges toward the cat like a bull in a china shop.
Lemieux looks at Jen as if to say, "Are you joking? The kid again! Do we have to do this today?"
Jen watches to see what happens.
Tyler says, "Oh, kitty!" and thinks if he will only let me love on him.
Tyler lays his head on cat.
Cat is ticked off but still sits there.
Tyler offers kitty a book but cat gives him a look like whatever.
Tyler persists and tries to love on kitty again.
Cat gives Tyler a warning meow look kid, that's enough.
Tyler giggles and says "oh, kitty"
Cat gives Tyler a warning swipe with his paw.
Tyler chases cat around furniture.
Cat looks at Jen as if to say, "Seriously, this is getting old."
Tyler gives up after about 5 minutes and then goes to love on the dog.
Dog looks at Jen as if to say, "Here we go again."
Tyler loves and loves and loves on dog while cat goes upstairs to hide.

Sicky Sickerson

People, I am about at the end of my rope and I know you can relate. We've been sick at the Burns' house for about 3 weeks with only a day or two of respite in between outbreaks. Poor Tyler has been the most sick. Rick has managed to stay well (knock on wood) and I've had a nasty head cold. Let me be honest with you, I am the biggest baby when I have a head cold. I HATE having a stuffy nose and I use nasal spray more than I'm supposed to which makes it worse. I'm like a drug addict who needs her next fix. Seriously. At least nasal spray is only $5 a bottle. Just kidding. I have sick sense of humor sometimes.

Thank goodness my husband takes complete care of Tyler once he gets home from work when I'm sick. Last night I went to bed at 6:30pm. Thanks, Rick. :-)

Staying home so much is DEPRESSING.

Cancelled Cruise

Ugggg. We decided to cancel the cruise that were going to take to the Bahamas Dec. 13-20th. There are a few reasons with the main one being the cost was going to be quite a bit more than we anticipated. Do you know that we'd have to pay $15 a day to park at the port parking lot in Charleston? Plus, when I made the reservation I specifically asked if the stated cost included gratuities. I was told yes but later I found out I was given incorrect information. We've talked to several customer service reps. and managers and they are not willing to compensate us for the misinformation (give us credit for the money we'd spend on gratuities - which is actually fairly expensive).

I made the reservation before the economy took a nose-dive. We are going to lose our deposit money, which makes us sick, but when we crunched the numbers it made sense to cancel. I think it will cost $350 to cancel. Uggg, can you see my heart sink? But we figured it would be better to lose the $350 than to go through with it. Finally, I don't feel good about being on the water in my condition. I can't tell you what that is right now but I hope to soon.

I'm in Love

Rick asked me what I want for my birthday. I didn't want anything except for a Starbucks gift card. That was until I saw this week's Target ad....there it was....so pretty.....the Dyson Ball. He could see the eyes widen as I looked at the picture. There was no way I was going to ask for a vacuum with a hefty price tag like that. Well, Rick and Tyler surprised me with it. I am in love....with the Dyson Ball. It works really well and is light. As Rick put it together tonight Tyler played in the box. Here are two pics.

Cast Your Ballot

What was your voting experience like? I was concerned that I'd have to wait in line for a long, long time based on what I saw during 'early voting' and the line today at Lake Wylie Elementary School. Well, I went arrived at 6:50pm and guess how long I waited? Zero, zip, nada! Oh, I felt so lucky! Laura Ziel (former MOMS Club member) was there working the polls and she told me they were super busy from opening until 1pm but then it was slow the rest of the day. Laura, you ROCK for working there....5am until midnight....I'm not a devout citizen as you are!

Halloween, 2008

Side view of Tyler's elephant costume.

"Holy cow! What have I gotten myself into?"

Daddy and Ty trick-or-treating

Greensboro a Bust

So I drive up to Greensboro yesterday morning for what was supposed to be a day and a half of alone time for me (even a night alone in a hotel). I was supposed to attend the Women of Faith Conference. I was going to the pre-session and then the regular session. Usually large groups of women go to this or you go with at least a couple of friends. I was totally okay going alone when I made the reservation in July.

I got there yesterday around 10:40am to get a general admission seat. It stated at 10am so I was late. I am not someone who has an issue with doing things by herself. I've even vacationed overseas by myself twice and was perfectly fine. I am happy to go to the movies by myself. Heck, I even drove from AZ to NC by myself. But as I sat there by myself, it really sucked.

There was no one to look at/relate to when something really funny was said. There was no one with whom I could share the experience with. I looked around and I swear I was the only person by herself. I ate lunch by myself outside (meal included)and was kind of hoping I could chat with someone. Everyone was engaged in conversation with the other women they came with. I probably could have tried to make an effort to talk to someone but I didn't. Not like me.

After lunch I went back into the arena and was confident that I'd be able to shake my feeling of being isolated. That lasted for about 2 minutes and I got up, walked to my car, and drove all the way back home to Charlotte. Yes, I had paid for the entire conference. No, the money isn't refundable. I didn't have to pay for my hotel, though. The odd thing is that I'm totally okay with my decision to leave. I don't regret it except for missing out on listening to the speakers.

Now I'm home and I was able to go trick-or-treating with Rick and Tyler. I am still off the clock until 7pm when I would have been home had I stayed at the conference. By the way, my leaving early has no reflection on the conference itself. I truly enjoyed listening to the speakers but it's just not the kind of thing I wanted to be alone at. I went with a friend in 2005 and truly loved it. I plan on going next year with at least one friend. Wanna go?