Each step of this pregnancy yields good news. Still, I am guarded and don't want to become too attached. I was nervous last night and had a specific prayer that I prayer alone and then Rick and I prayed it together this morning, "Lord, let the ultrasound show that the baby is healthy." As the ultrasound tech began my scan, tears dribbled down my face. "Are you okay?" she asked. "I'm afraid something will be wrong. You know what happened to my last baby."
My fear became less and less as she progressed through the scan, "The heart looks good, the neucal translucency looks good...." She kept saying that it all looked good and that she did not see any indications of anything being wrong. The fact that there wasn't anything wrong with the neucal translucency (neck fold) was major because babies with trisomies have issues with those. In fact, that was the first thing they looked for with the level 2 ultrasound I had with baby Kevin at week 16. That was before he had been diagnosed with Trisomy 13 although we had an idea something was wrong based on the quad screen results. I already know there is a 98.5 chance this baby does not have any trisomies yet I still wanted to see a healthy neck fold. But I digress....
Dr. Phillips was happy with the ultrasound results. In 4 weeks I'll have another scan to look at my cervix. That will help determine the likelihood if this baby will be premature. (Remember that Tyler was six weeks premature but only due to a fluke of premature rupture of membranes, not something that is likely to occur again.)That ultrasound at 23 weeks plus the progesterone shots I take should give me an advantage. I hope.
I've been feeling the baby move around quite a bit over the last few days. Coincidentally, I first felt Tyler move a lot at week 18 also. I think it's time to nest. I had put it off out of fear. What if I got everything ready only to lose the baby? THANK GOD I never did any sort of nesting ahead of time with baby Kevin. Statistically, however, the fact that I've made it this far with only good news means that I have a really good chance of actually delivering a baby who's alive and well. Time to get out Tyler's baby clothes, wash and organize them. Please, God, let this all work out.